Maria 05
03-12-2008, 03:12 PM
This is going to sound so selfish but I am reaching snapping point. I just don't think I can take much more. This is going to be long!
First thing is my grandparents – my mother’s parents- my mother’s family are large and close knit and my granny is worrying every one. She started to complain of a pain in her back and granda took over her tablets when the pain did not abate. My granny knew what tablets to take but Granda has taken them out of their containers and put them in envelopes and stands over her while she takes them. He thinks he is helping but granny feels that he is condescending and treating her as if she is a fool. She got sick because of the speed he made her take her tablets. Now she is refusing to take her tablets because she doesn’t know what is what because they are in envelopes and not the correct packages. Granda won’t believe he did anything wrong and doesn’t like being corrected. So Mammy is stressing out over this and worrying over her mother. She has gone down again to the house to try to negotiate a peace treaty.
I could deal with that on its own but one of my fiends has been having a rough time of it too. He crashed his car (oil on the road and with the rain it was just an accident waiting to happen) and then there was an electrical fault and his house burnt down. Luckily he was taken out alive and treated for nothing worse than smoke inhalation. He rang me and I spent hours talking to him and being there for him and then Mick rang to tell me that his father was in hospital (see my journal) and right now Mick is obviously and understandably not doing too well.
While I am enjoying and loving my challenges with my tour guiding, I am having stage fright every morning before I have a tour. Nose bleeds and vomiting and I just feel overwhelmed by every thing. I feel I have no one to turn too because the problems are not mine apart from the last one which I hope I will just get over – once I start my tour I am flying it. I just wish that things would stop happening or at least happen to me so I would not feel guilty about feeling overwhelmed by it all.
First thing is my grandparents – my mother’s parents- my mother’s family are large and close knit and my granny is worrying every one. She started to complain of a pain in her back and granda took over her tablets when the pain did not abate. My granny knew what tablets to take but Granda has taken them out of their containers and put them in envelopes and stands over her while she takes them. He thinks he is helping but granny feels that he is condescending and treating her as if she is a fool. She got sick because of the speed he made her take her tablets. Now she is refusing to take her tablets because she doesn’t know what is what because they are in envelopes and not the correct packages. Granda won’t believe he did anything wrong and doesn’t like being corrected. So Mammy is stressing out over this and worrying over her mother. She has gone down again to the house to try to negotiate a peace treaty.
I could deal with that on its own but one of my fiends has been having a rough time of it too. He crashed his car (oil on the road and with the rain it was just an accident waiting to happen) and then there was an electrical fault and his house burnt down. Luckily he was taken out alive and treated for nothing worse than smoke inhalation. He rang me and I spent hours talking to him and being there for him and then Mick rang to tell me that his father was in hospital (see my journal) and right now Mick is obviously and understandably not doing too well.
While I am enjoying and loving my challenges with my tour guiding, I am having stage fright every morning before I have a tour. Nose bleeds and vomiting and I just feel overwhelmed by every thing. I feel I have no one to turn too because the problems are not mine apart from the last one which I hope I will just get over – once I start my tour I am flying it. I just wish that things would stop happening or at least happen to me so I would not feel guilty about feeling overwhelmed by it all.